I am more worried of him

Assalamulaikum..

After 7 years of marriage, hari ni kami start berjauhan. PJJ for 6 weeks in shaa Allah. Hubs have been assigned to help the company to setup another branch in JB. Layout dah siap cuma nak bawa barang masuk & nak train staff di sana saja sebelum dia boleh balik Penang. 

But it doesn't ends there. Balik Penang for a month lepas tu PJJ balik for 6 freaking months yall. Tapi Hubs dekat KL saja lah. Dekat KL tu sebab nak kena straighten up a few things kat sana. Actually they offered him a permanent position in KL. Hubs has put a price on it but unfortunately they couldn't accord to it. So they counter-offered Hubs tugasan ini. I hope there's nothing behind it lah. Paham tak?

Well..apa perasaan I? Nangis bucu katil tak? Hmmm yeap I teared a bit subuh tadi tapi mengantok tu lebih so Alhamdulillah la takdak drama yang lebih-lebih. I ni jenis malas nak fikir apa akan jadi. I suka settle masalah I there & then. Tak suka nak down awal-awal thinking what will happen esok-esok ni. All I can say is Alhamdulillah I dah train myself to do everything sendiri pun selama ni. Hubs ada tolong jugak tapi mostly on technical stuff, angkat barang berat-berat or pasal isi angin tayar keta ka for example. Yang lain dalam pengurusan hantar Noah pi sana sini, arrange for his clinic visits, bla bla bla I buat sendiri ja mostly. Bila Hubs available baru dia ikut. Or else, I tak pernah paksa pun dia ikut or turut serta I buat benda-benda ni. U know, just getting myself ready for days like this. Alhamdulillah. 

Tapi tipu lah sangat kalau I kata tak sedih. Gila tak sedih. Of course I terasa dia takdak. I will miss the sense of his presence tu terpaling major. I will miss having him at home, leaving his coffee everywhere, his snoring and everything else in between. I ni memang luaran nampak kental. Orang nampak macam I tak heran pun. Tapi dalaman sapa tau? I takmau tunjuk sangat sebab I takmau bagi dia susah hati. Biar dia pi dengan senang hati. Noah tu in shaa Allah I boleh handle. Kalau kat luar Noah susah dikawal dengan I sorang saja, then tak payah la keluar. Nak makan ka apa, masak ja sendiri. Wow. Aida sembang bikin diri sendiri bimbang. LOL.

Hubs dok kata dia risaukan I nanti bila dia takdak. But to me, I am more worried about him. Hubs tak pernah hidup sendiri sepanjang hidup dia. And he is 35 years old now. What makes he think he should be worrying about me rather than himself? Tak pernah guna washing machine, tak pernah guna iron, tak pernah siap makan sendiri (other than pi amik lauk yang dah siap terhidang), tak pernah beli toiletries sendiri unless dah memang habis sangat & he really need it. He is really a anak manja. Being the first and only son in the family. The first cucu that live with the grandmother since birth. What do you expect? I pulak on the other hand dah memang di train oleh my mom (by observation I mean) to siapkan everything for the husband. Contoh kalau travelling, tiap-tiap hari masa Hubs mandi I akan sediakan dah dari spenda ke seluaq ke baju apa dia nak pakai. Sebab kalau tak, tetap dia akan tanya spenda kat mana, baju apa nak pakai, seluar apa nak pakai.

Baru 1st day ni. Harap-harap Allah kekalkan kekuatan yang ada pada I hari ni sampai Hubs balik ke pangkuan kami. Gittewww.